Some Do Not … · Part I · Chapter 1 2 (3/3)

“I don’t know. I don’t suppose you were⁠—or are⁠—any worse than your mother or grandmother, or the patricianesses of Rome or the worshippers of Ashtaroth. It seems we have to have a governing class and governing classes are subject to special temptations.”

“Who’s Ashtaroth?” Sylvia asked. “Astarte?” and then: “Now, Father, after your experiences would you say the factory girls of Liverpool, or any other slum, are any better women than us that you used to look after?”

“Astarte Syriaca,” the Father said, “was a very powerful devil. There’s some that hold she’s not dead yet. I don’t know that I do myself.”

“Well, I’ve done with her,” Sylvia said.

The Father nodded:

“You’ve had dealings with Mrs. Profumo?” he asked. “And that loathsome fellow.⁠ ⁠… What’s his name?”

“Does it shock you?” Sylvia asked. “I’ll admit it was a bit thick.⁠ ⁠… But I’ve done with it. I prefer to pin my faith to Mrs. Vanderdecken. And, of course, Freud.”

The priest nodded his head and said:

“Of course! Of course.⁠ ⁠…”

But Mrs. Satterthwaite exclaimed, with sudden energy:

“Sylvia Tietjens, I don’t care what you do or what you read, but if you ever speak another word to that woman, you never do to me!”

Sylvia stretched herself on her sofa. She opened her brown eyes wide and let the lids slowly drop again.

“I’ve said once,” she said, “that I don’t like to hear my friends miscalled. Eunice Vanderdecken is a bitterly misjudged woman. She’s a real good pal.”

“She’s a Russian spy,” Mrs. Satterthwaite said.

“Russian grandmother,” Sylvia answered. “And if she is, who cares? She’s welcome for me.⁠ ⁠… Listen now, you two. I said to myself when I came in: ‘I daresay I’ve given them both a rotten time.’ I know you’re both more nuts on me than I deserve. And I said I’d sit and listen to all the pi-jaw you wanted to give me if I sat till dawn. And I will. As a return. But I’d rather you let my friends alone.”

Both the elder people were silent. There came from the shuttered windows of the dark room a low, scratching rustle.

“You hear!” the priest said to Mrs. Satterthwaite.

“It’s the branches,” Mrs. Satterthwaite answered.

The Father answered: “There’s no tree within ten yards! Try bats as an explanation.”

“I’ve said I wish you wouldn’t, once,” Mrs. Satterthwaite shivered. Sylvia said:

“I don’t know what you two are talking about. It sounds like superstition. Mother’s rotten with it.”

“I don’t say that it’s devils trying to get in,” the Father said. “But it’s just as well to remember that devils are always trying to get in. And there are especial spots. These deep forests are noted among others.” He suddenly turned his back and pointed at the shadowy wall. “Who,” he asked, “but a savage possessed by a devil could have conceived of that as a decoration?” He was pointing at a life-sized, coarsely daubed picture of a wild boar dying, its throat cut, and gouts of scarlet blood. Other agonies of animals went away into all the shadows.

“Sport!” he hissed. “It’s devilry!”

“That’s perhaps true,” Sylvia said. Mrs. Satterthwaite was crossing herself with great rapidity. The silence remained.

Sylvia said:

“Then if you’re both done talking I’ll say what I have to say. To begin with⁠ ⁠…” She stopped and sat rather erect, listening to the rustling from the shutters.

“To begin with,” she began again with impetus, “you spared me the catalogue of the defects of age; I know them. One grows skinny⁠—my sort⁠—the complexion fades, the teeth stick out. And then there is the boredom. I know it; one is bored⁠ ⁠… bored⁠ ⁠… bored! You can’t tell me anything I don’t know about that. I’m thirty. I know what to expect. You’d like to have told me, Father, only you were afraid of taking away from your ‘famous man of the world’ effect⁠—you’d like to have told me that one can insure against the boredom and the long, skinny teeth by love of husband and child. The home stunt! I believe it! I do quite believe it. Only I hate my husband⁠ ⁠… and I hate⁠ ⁠… I hate my child.”

She paused, waiting for exclamations of dismay or disapprobation from the priest. These did not come.

“Think,” she said, “of all the ruin that child has meant for me; the pain in bearing him and the fear of death.”

“Of course,” the priest said, “childbearing is for women a very terrible thing.”

“I can’t say,” Mrs. Tietjens went on, “that this has been a very decent conversation. You get a girl⁠ ⁠… fresh from open sin, and make her talk about it. Of course you’re a priest and mother’s mother; we’re en famille. But Sister Mary of the Cross at the convent had a maxim: ‘Wear velvet gloves in family life.’ We seem to be going at it with the gloves off.”

Father Consett still didn’t say anything.

“You’re trying, of course, to draw me,” Sylvia said. “I can see that with half an eye.⁠ ⁠… Very well then, you shall.⁠ ⁠…”

She drew a breath.

“You want to know why I hate my husband. I’ll tell you; it’s because of his simple, sheer immorality. I don’t mean his actions; his views! Every speech he utters about everything makes me⁠—I swear it makes me⁠—in spite of myself, want to stick a knife into him, and I can’t prove he’s wrong, not ever, about the simplest thing. I can pain him. And I will.⁠ ⁠… He sits about in chairs that fit his back, clumsy, like a rock, not moving for hours.⁠ ⁠… And I can make him wince. Oh, without showing it.⁠ ⁠… He’s what you call⁠ ⁠… oh, loyal.⁠ ⁠… There’s an absurd little chit of a fellow⁠ ⁠… oh, Macmaster⁠ ⁠… and his mother⁠ ⁠… whom he persists in a silly, mystical way in calling a saint⁠ ⁠… a Protestant saint!⁠ ⁠… And his old nurse, who looks after his child⁠ ⁠… and the child itself.⁠ ⁠… I tell you I’ve only got to raise an eyelid⁠ ⁠… yes, cock an eyelid up a little when anyone of them is mentioned⁠ ⁠… and it hurts him dreadfully. His eyes roll in a sort of mute anguish.⁠ ⁠… Of course he doesn’t say anything. He’s an English country gentleman.”

Father Consett said:

“This immorality you talk about in your husband.⁠ ⁠… I’ve never noticed it. I saw a good deal of him when I stayed with you for the week before your child was born. I talked with him a great deal. Except in matters of the two communions⁠—and even in these I don’t know that we differed so much⁠—I found him perfectly sound.”

“Sound!” Mrs. Satterthwaite said with sudden emphasis; “of course he’s sound. It isn’t even the word. He’s the best ever. There was your father, for a good man⁠ ⁠… and him. That’s an end of it.”

“Ah,” Sylvia said, “you don’t know.⁠ ⁠… Look here. Try and be just. Suppose I’m looking at the Times at breakfast and say, not having spoken to him for a week: ‘It’s wonderful what the doctors are doing. Have you seen the latest?’ And at once he’ll be on his high horse⁠—he knows everything!⁠—and he’ll prove⁠ ⁠… prove⁠ ⁠… that all unhealthy children must be lethal-chambered or the world will go to pieces. And it’s like being hypnotised; you can’t think of what to answer him. Or he’ll reduce you to speechless rage by proving that murderers ought not to be executed. And then I’ll ask, casually, if children ought to be lethal-chambered for being constipated. Because Marchant⁠—that’s the nurse⁠—is always whining that the child’s bowels aren’t regular and the dreadful diseases that leads to. Of course that hurts him. For he’s perfectly soppy about that child, though he half knows it isn’t his own.⁠ ⁠… But that’s what I mean by immorality. He’ll profess that murderers ought to be preserved in order to breed from because they’re bold fellows, and innocent little children executed because they’re sick⁠ ⁠… And he’ll almost make you believe it, though you’re on the point of retching at the ideas.”

“You wouldn’t now,” Father Consett began, and almost coaxingly, “think of going into retreat for a month or two.”

“I wouldn’t,” Sylvia said. “How could I?”

“There’s a convent of female Premonstratensians near Birkenhead, many ladies go there,” the Father went on. “They cook very well, and you can have your own furniture and your own maid if ye don’t like nuns to wait on you.”

“It can’t be done,” Sylvia said, “you can see for yourself. It would make people smell a rat at once. Christopher wouldn’t hear of it.⁠ ⁠…”

“No, I’m afraid it can’t be done, Father,” Mrs. Satterthwaite interrupted finally. “I’ve hidden here for four months to cover Sylvia’s tracks. I’ve got Wateman’s to look after. My new land steward’s coming in next week.”

“Still,” the Father urged, with a sort of tremulous eagerness, “if only for a month.⁠ ⁠… If only for a fortnight.⁠ ⁠… So many Catholic ladies do it.⁠ ⁠… Ye might think of it.”

“I see what you’re aiming at,” Sylvia said with sudden anger; “you’re revolted at the idea of my going straight from one man’s arms to another.”

“I’d be better pleased if there could be an interval,” the Father said. “It’s what’s called bad form.”

Sylvia became electrically rigid on her sofa.

“Bad form!” she exclaimed. “You accuse me of bad form.”

The Father slightly bowed his head like a man facing a wind.

“I do,” he said. “It’s disgraceful. It’s unnatural. I’d travel a bit at least.”

She placed her hand on her long throat.

“I know what you mean,” she said, “you want to spare Christopher⁠ ⁠… the humiliation. The⁠ ⁠… the nausea. No doubt he’ll feel nauseated. I’ve reckoned on that. It will give me a little of my own back.”

The Father said:

“That’s enough, woman. I’ll hear no more.”

Sylvia said:

“You will then. Listen here.⁠ ⁠… I’ve always got this to look forward to: I’ll settle down by that man’s side. I’ll be as virtuous as any woman. I’ve made up my mind to it and I’ll be it. And I’ll be bored stiff for the rest of my life. Except for one thing. I can torment that man. And I’ll do it. Do you understand how I’ll do it? There are many ways. But if the worst comes to the worst, I can always drive him silly⁠ ⁠… by corrupting the child!” She was panting a little, and round her brown eyes the whites showed. “I’ll get even with him. I can. I know how, you see. And with you, through him, for tormenting me. I’ve come all the way from Brittany without stopping. I haven’t slept.⁠ ⁠… But I can⁠ ⁠…”

Father Consett put his hand beneath the tail of his coat.

“Sylvia Tietjens,” he said, “in my pistol pocket I’ve a little bottle of holy water which I carry for such occasions. What if I was to throw two drops of it over you and cry: Exorciso te Ashtaroth in nomine?⁠ ⁠…”

She erected her body above her skirts on the sofa, stiffened like a snake’s neck above its coils. Her face was quite pallid, her eyes staring out.

“You⁠ ⁠… you daren’t,” she said. “To me⁠ ⁠… an outrage!” Her feet slid slowly to the floor; she measured the distance to the doorway with her eyes. “You daren’t,” she said again; “I’d denounce you to the Bishop.⁠ ⁠…”

“It’s little the Bishop would help you with them burning into your skin,” the priest said. “Go away, I bid you, and say a Hail Mary or two. Ye need them. Ye’ll not talk of corrupting a little child before me again.”

“I won’t,” Sylvia said. “I shouldn’t have⁠ ⁠…”

Her black figure showed in silhouette against the open doorway.

When the door was closed upon them, Mrs. Satterthwaite said:

“Was it necessary to threaten her with that? You know best, of course. It seems rather strong to me.”

“It’s a hair from the dog that’s bit her,” the priest said. “She’s a silly girl. She’s been playing at black masses along with that Mrs. Profumo and the fellow who’s name I can’t remember. You could tell that. They cut the throat of a white kid and splash its blood about.⁠ ⁠… That was at the back of her mind.⁠ ⁠… It’s not very serious. A parcel of silly, idle girls. It’s not much more than palmistry or fortune-telling to them if one has to weigh it, for all its ugliness, as a sin. As far as their volition goes, and it’s volition that’s the essence of prayer, black or white.⁠ ⁠… But it was at the back of her mind, and she won’t forget tonight.”

“Of course, that’s your affair, Father,” Mrs. Satterthwaite said lazily. “You hit her pretty hard. I don’t suppose she’s ever been hit so hard. What was it you wouldn’t tell her?”

“Only,” the priest said, “I wouldn’t tell her because the thought’s best not put in her head.⁠ ⁠… But her hell on earth will come when her husband goes running, blind, head down, mad after another woman.”

Mrs. Satterthwaite looked at nothing; then she nodded.

“Yes,” she said; “I hadn’t thought of it.⁠ ⁠… But will he? He is a very sound fellow, isn’t he?”

“What’s to stop it?” the priest asked. “What in the world but the grace of our blessed Lord, which he hasn’t got and doesn’t ask for? And then⁠ ⁠… He’s a young man, full-blooded, and they won’t be living⁠ ⁠… maritalement. Not if I know him. And then.⁠ ⁠… Then she’ll tear the house down. The world will echo with her wrongs.”

“Do you mean to say,” Mrs. Satterthwaite said, “that Sylvia would do anything vulgar?”

“Doesn’t every woman who’s had a man to torture for years when she loses him?” the priest asked. “The more she’s made an occupation of torturing him the less right she thinks she has to lose him.”

Mrs. Satterthwaite looked gloomily into the dusk.

“That poor devil.⁠ ⁠…” she said. “Will he get any peace anywhere?⁠ ⁠… What’s the matter, Father?”

The Father said:

“I’ve just remembered she gave me tea and cream and I drank it. Now I can’t take mass for Father Reinhardt. I’ll have to go and knock up his curate, who lives away in the forest.”

At the door, holding the candle, he said:

“I’d have you not get up today nor yet tomorrow, if ye can stand it. Have a headache and let Sylvia nurse you⁠ ⁠… You’ll have to tell how she nursed you when you get back to London. And I’d rather ye didn’t lie more out and out than ye need, if it’s to please me.⁠ ⁠… Besides, if ye watch Sylvia nursing you, you might hit on a characteristic touch to make it seem more truthful.⁠ ⁠… How her sleeves brushed the medicine bottles and irritated you, maybe⁠ ⁠… or⁠—you’ll know! If we can save scandal to the congregation, we may as well.”

He ran downstairs.