Miss Marjoribanks · Chapter 39 (1/3)

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It was a very good thing for Lucilla that Mrs. John was so much of an invalid, notwithstanding that the Doctor made little of her complaints. All that Dr. Marjoribanks said was⁠—with that remnant of Scotch which was often perceptible in his speech⁠—that her illnesses were a fine thing to occupy her, and he did not know what she would do without them⁠—a manner of speaking which naturally lessened his daughter’s anxiety, though her sympathetic care and solicitude were undiminished. And no doubt, when she had been once assured that there was nothing dangerous in her aunt’s case, it was a relief to Miss Marjoribanks at the present juncture that Mrs. John got up late and always breakfasted in her own room. Lucilla went into that sanctuary after she had given her father his breakfast, and heard all about the palpitation and the bad night Aunt Jemima had passed; and then when she had consoled her suffering relative by the reflection that one never sleeps well the first night or two, Miss Marjoribanks was at liberty to go forth and attend a little to her own affairs, which stood so much in need of being attended to. She had had no further talk with the Doctor on the subject, but she had read over Mr. Cavendish’s address, and could not help seeing that it went dead against her candidate; neither could Lucilla remain altogether unaffected by the expression of feeling in respect to “a place in which I have spent so many pleasant years, and which has so many claims on my affections,” and the touching haste with which the exile had rushed back as soon as he heard of the old member’s death. If it touched Miss Marjoribanks, who was already pledged to support another interest, what might it not do to the gentlemen in Grange Lane who were not pledged, and who had a friendship for Mr. Cavendish? This was the alarming thought that had disturbed her sleep all night, and returned to her mind with her first awakening; and when she had really her time to herself, and the fresh morning hours before her, Lucilla began, as everybody ought to do, by going to the very root and foundation, and asking herself what, beyond all secondary considerations, it was right to do. To change from one side to the other and go back from her word was a thing abhorrent to her; but still Miss Marjoribanks was aware that there are certain circumstances in which honesty and truth themselves demand what in most cases is considered an untruthful and dishonest proceeding.

Thus in order to come to a right decision, and with a sense of the duty she owed to her country which would have shamed half the electors in England, not to say Carlingford, Lucilla, who naturally had no vote, read the two addresses of the two candidates, and addressed herself candidly and impartially to the rights of the subject. Mr. Cavendish was disposed, as we have said, to be pathetic and sentimental, and to speak of the claims the borough had upon his affections, and the eagerness with which he had rushed home at the earliest possible moment to present himself to them. If poor old Mr. Chiltern had been King Bomba, or a gloomy Oriental tyrant, keeping all possible reformers and successors banished from his dominions, the new candidate could not have spoken with more pathos. It was a sort of thing which tells among the imaginative part of the community, or so, at least, most people think; and Miss Marjoribanks was moved by it for the first moment; but then her enlightened mind asserted its rights. She said to herself that Mr. Cavendish might have come home at any hour, by any steamboat; that Calais and Boulogne, and even Dieppe, were as open to him as if he had been an actual refugee, and that consequently there was nothing particular to be pathetic about. And then, if the town had such claims on his affections, why had he stayed so long away? These two rationalistic questions dispersed the first attendrissement which had begun to steal over Lucilla’s mind. When she came to this conclusion, her difficulties cleared away. She had no reason to go back from her engagements and reject that intimation which had so impressed it on her, that Mr. Ashburton was the man. It was a sacrifice which ancient truth and friendship did not demand, for verity was not in the document she had just been reading, and that appeal to sentiment was nothing more than what is generally called humbug. “He might have been living here all the time,” Lucilla said to herself; “he might have had much stronger claims upon our affections; if he had wanted, he might have come back ages ago, and not let people struggle on alone.” When this view of the subject occurred to her, Lucilla felt more indignation than sympathy. And then, as Dr. Marjoribanks had done, she turned to the calm utterance of her own candidate⁠—the man who was the only man for Carlingford⁠—and that sweet sense of having given sound counsel, and of having at last met with someone capable of carrying it out, which makes up for so many failures, came like balm to Lucilla’s bosom. There was nothing more necessary; the commotion in her mind calmed down, and the tranquillity of undisturbed conviction came in its place. And it was with this sense of certainty that she put on her bonnet and issued forth, though it snowed a little, and was a very wintry day, on Mr. Ashburton’s behalf, to try her fortune in Grange Lane.

She went to Mrs. Chiley’s, who was now very old, poor old lady! and feeble, and did not like to leave her sofa. Not but what she could leave the sofa, she said to her friends, but at that time of the year, and at her time of life, it was comfortable. The sofa was wheeled to the side of the fire, and Mrs. Chiley reclined upon it, covered with knitted rugs of the brightest colours, which her young friends all worked for her. The last one arrived was what used to be called an Afghanistan blanket, done in stripes of all sorts of pretty tints, which was a present from Mrs. Beverley. “Her work, she says, Lucilla,” said the old lady; “but we know what sort of soft dawdling woman she is, and it must have been the Archdeacon’s nieces, you know.” But still it had the place of honour at present, covering Mrs. Chiley’s feet, and affording something to talk about when anyone came in. And by her side was a little table, upon which stood one China rose, in a glass of water⁠—a pale rose, almost as pale as her soft old cheeks, and chilled like them by the approaching frost. And the fire burned with an officious cheerfulness at her elbow, as if it thought nothing of such accidental circumstances as winter and old age. To be sure this was a reflection which never came into Mrs. Chiley’s head, who was, on the contrary, very thankful for the fire, and said it was like a companion. “And I often think, my dear, how do the poor people get on, especially if they are old and sick, they have no fires to keep them cheerful in this dreadful weather,” the kind old lady would say. She did say so now when Lucilla came in, glowing with cold and her rapid walk, and with a flake or two of snow slowly melting on her sealskin cloak. Perhaps it was not a sentiment the Colonel agreed with, for he gave a humph and a little hoist of his shoulders, as if in protest, being himself a good deal limited in his movements, and not liking to own it, by the wintry torpor within his big old frame, and the wintry weather outside.

“Come and tell us all the news, Lucilla, my darling,” Mrs. Chiley said, as she drew down her young friend’s glowing face to her own, and gave her one of her lingering kisses; “I felt sure you would come and tell us everything. I said it would not be like Lucilla if she didn’t. We know nothing but the fact, you know⁠—not another word. Make haste and tell us everything, my dear.”

“But I don’t know anything,” said Miss Marjoribanks. “Of course you mean about Mr. Cavendish. I saw it in the papers, like everybody else, but I don’t know anything more.”

And then Mrs. Chiley’s countenance fell. She was not very strong, poor old lady, and she could have cried, as she said afterwards. “Ah, well, I suppose there is not time,” she said, after a little pause; “I suppose he has not got here from Dover yet⁠—one always forgets the distance. I calculated it all over last night, and I thought he would get home by the eleven train; but these trains are never to be calculated upon, you know, my dear. I am a little disappointed, Lucilla. Poor dear! to think how he must have rushed home the first moment⁠—I could have cried when I read that address.”

“I don’t see why anyone should cry,” said Lucilla. “I think he makes a great deal too much of that; he might have come ever so many years ago if he had liked. Poor Mr. Chiltern did not banish him, poor old man!⁠—he might have been here for years.”

Upon which the Colonel himself drew a little nearer, and poked the fire. “I am glad to see you are so sensible, Lucilla,” he said. “It’s the first rational word I have heard on the subject. She thinks he’s a kind of saint and martyr; a silly young fellow that runs off among a set of Frenchmen because he can’t get everything his own way⁠—and then he expects that we are all to go into transports of joy, and give him our votes,” Colonel Chiley added, smashing a great piece of coal with the poker, with a blow full of energy, yet showing a slight unsteadiness in it, which sent a host of blazing splinters into the hearth. He was a man who wore very well, but he was not so steady as he once was, and nowadays was apt, by some tremulous movement, to neutralise the strength which he had left.

Mrs. Chiley, for her part, was apt to be made very nervous by her husband’s proceedings. She was possessed by a terror that the splinters some day would jump out of the hearth on to the carpet and fly into the corners, “and perhaps burn us all up in our beds,” as she said. She gave a little start among her cushions, and stooped down to look over the floor. “He will never learn that he is old,” she said in Lucilla’s ear, who instantly came to her side to see what she wanted; and thus the two old people kept watch upon each other, and noted, with a curious mixture of vexation and sympathy, each other’s declining strength.

“For my part, I would give him all my votes, if I had a hundred,” said Mrs. Chiley, “and so will you, too, when you hear the rights of it. Lucilla, my dear, tell him⁠—I hope you are not going to forsake old friends.”

“No,” said Miss Marjoribanks⁠—but she spoke with a gravity and hesitation which did not fail to reach Mrs. Chiley’s ear⁠—“I hope I shall never desert my old friends; but I think all the same that it is Mr. Ashburton who is the right man for Carlingford,” she said slowly. She said it with reluctance, for she knew it would shock her audience, but, at the same time, she did not shrink from her duty; and the moment had now arrived when Lucilla felt concealment was impossible, and that the truth must be said.

As for Mrs. Chiley, she was so distressed that the tears came to her eyes; and even the Colonel laughed, and did not understand it. Colonel Chiley, though he was by no means as yet on Mr. Cavendish’s side, was not any more capable than his neighbours of understanding Miss Marjoribanks’s single-minded devotion to what was just and right; and why she should transfer her support to Ashburton, who was not a ladies’ man, nor, in the Colonel’s opinion, a marrying man, nor anything at all attractive, now that the other had come back romantic and repentant to throw his honours at her feet, was beyond his power of explanation. He contented himself with saying “humph”; but his wife was not so easily satisfied. She took Lucilla by the hand and poured forth a flood of remonstrances and prayers.

“I do not understand you, Lucilla,” said Mrs. Chiley. “He whom we know so little about⁠—whom, I am sure, you have no reason to care for. And where could you find anybody nicer than Mr. Cavendish?⁠—and he to have such faith in us, and to come rushing back as soon as he was able. I am sure you have not taken everything into consideration, Lucilla. He might not perhaps do exactly as could have been wished before he went away; but he was young and he was led astray; and I do think you were a little hard upon him, my dear; but I have always said I never knew anybody nicer than Mr. Cavendish. And what possible reason you can have to care about that other man⁠—”

“It was like a special Intimation,” said Lucilla, with solemnity. “I don’t see how I could neglect it, for my part. The day the news came about poor old Mr. Chiltern’s death I was out, you know, and heard it; and just at one spot upon the pavement, opposite Mr. Holden’s, it came into my mind like a flash of lightning that Mr. Ashburton was the man. I don’t care in the least for him, and I had not been thinking of him, or anything. It came into my head all in a moment. If I had been very intimate with poor dear old Mr. Chiltern, or if I believed in spirit-rapping, I should think it was a message from him.”

Lucilla spoke with great gravity, but she did not impress her audience, who were people of sceptical minds. Mrs. Chiley, for her part, was almost angry, and could scarcely forgive Lucilla for having made her give grave attention to such a piece of nonsense. “If it had been him,” she said, with some wrath, “I don’t see how having been dead for a few hours should make his advice worth having. It never was good for anything when he was alive. And you don’t believe in spirit-rapping, I hope. I wonder how you can talk such nonsense,” the old lady said severely. And Colonel Chiley, who had been a little curious too, laughed and coughed over the joke; for the two old people were of the old school, and of a very unbelieving frame of mind.

“I knew you would laugh,” said Miss Marjoribanks, “but I cannot help it. If it had been impressed upon your mind like that, you would have been different. And, of course, I like Mr. Cavendish much the best. I am so glad I have no vote,” said Lucilla; “it does not matter to anybody what I think; but if I had anything to do with it, you know I could not stand up for Mr. Cavendish, even though I am fond of him, when I felt sure that Mr. Ashburton is the man for Carlingford⁠—nobody could ask me to do that.”

There followed a pause upon this declaration; for Miss Marjoribanks, though she had no vote, was a person of undoubted influence, and such a conviction on her part was not to be laughed at. Even Colonel Chiley, who was undecided in his own mind, was moved by it a little. “What does the Doctor think?” he asked. “Ashburton doesn’t say a word about his principles that I can see; and the other, you know⁠—”

“Dear Colonel Chiley,” cried Lucilla, “he is not going to be Prime Minister; and I have always heard you say, as long as I can remember, that it was not opinions, you know, but a good man that people wanted. I have heard people talking politics for hours, and I always remember you saying that, and thinking it was the only sensible thing that was said; but, of course, I don’t understand politics,” Lucilla added, with humility. As for the Colonel, he took up the poker, perhaps to hide a little pleasant confusion, and again drew near the fire.

“By George! I believe Lucilla is in the right,” he said, with a certain agreeable consciousness. Perhaps he did not quite recollect at what moment of his life he had originated that sentiment, but he thought he could recollect having said it; and it was with the view of carrying off the bashfulness of genius, and not because the coals had any need of it, that he took up the poker⁠—a proceeding which was always regarded with alarm and suspicion by his wife.