The Ladies Lindores · Chapter 25 (2/2)

“You will get on better without me,” he said. “I can’t stand these fellows and their airs. It isn’t any fault of yours, Lady Car. Come, I’m pleased with you. You’ve stood by your own this time, I will say that for you. But they’re your kind, they’re not mine. Dash the little beggar, what a cheek he has! I’m not used to hear the house run down. But never mind, I don’t care a pin⁠—and it’s not your fault this time, Car,” he said, with a laugh, touching her cheek with his finger with a touch which was half a blow and half a caress. This was about as much tenderness as he was capable of showing. Carry followed him to the door, and saw him plunge down the great steps, and turn in the direction of the stables. Perhaps she was not sorry to avoid all further occasion of offence. She returned slowly through the long, vulgar, costly rooms⁠—a sigh of relief came from her overladen heart; but relief in one point made her but more painfully conscious of another. In the distance Millefleurs was examining closely all the ormolu and finery. As she came in sight of the party, walking slowly like the worn creature she was, feeling as if all the chances of life were over for her, and she herself incomparably older, more weary and exhausted than any of them, and her existence a worn-out thing apart from the brighter current of every day, there remained in her but one flicker of personal anxiety, one terror which yet could make everything more bitter. The group was much the same as when she left them⁠—Lady Lindores with Millefleurs, Edith and John silent behind them, Rintoul in a sort of general spectatorship, keeping watch upon the party. Carry touched John Erskine’s arm furtively and gave him an entreating look. He turned round to her alarmed.

“Lady Caroline! can I do anything? What is it?” he said.

She drew him back into a corner of the great room with its marble pillars. She was so breathless that she could hardly speak. “It is nothing⁠—it is only⁠—a question. Are you expecting⁠—people⁠—at Dalrulzian?”

Carry’s soft eyes had expanded to twice their size, and looked at him out of two caves of anxiety and hollow paleness. She gave him her hand unawares, as if asking him by that touch more than words could say. John was moved to the heart.

“I think not⁠—I hope not⁠—I have no answer. No, no, there will be no one,” he said.

She sank down into a chair with a faint smile. “You will think me foolish⁠—so very foolish⁠—it is nothing to me. But⁠—I am always so frightened,” said poor Carry, with the first pretence that occurred to her, “when there is any dispeace.”

“There will be no dispeace,” said John, “in any case. But I am sure⁠—I can be certain⁠—there will be no one there.”

She smiled upon him again, and waved her hand to him to leave her. “I will follow you directly,” she said.

What emotions there were in this little group! Carry sat with her hand upon her heart, which fluttered still, getting back her breath. Every remission of active pain seems a positive good. She sat still, feeling the relief and ease flow over her like a stream of healing to her very feet. She would be saved the one encounter which she could not bear; and then for the moment he was absent, and there would be no struggle to keep him in good-humour, or to conceal from others his readiness to offend and take offence. Was this all the semblance of happiness that remained for Carry? For the moment she was satisfied with it, and took breath, and recovered a little courage, and was thankful in that deprivation of all things⁠—thankful that no positive pain was to be added to make everything worse; and that a brief breathing-time was hers for the moment, an hour of rest.

Edith looked at John as he came back. She had lingered, half waiting for him, just as if he had been her partner in a procession. In that moment of separation Rintoul allowed himself to go off guard. She looked at John, and almost for the first time spoke. “Carry has been talking to you,” she said hastily, in an undertone.

“Yes⁠—about visitors⁠—people who might be coming to stay with me.”

“Is anyone coming to stay with you?” she asked, quickly.

“Nobody,” John replied with fervour; “nor shall at any risk.”

This all passed in a moment while Rintoul was off guard. She looked at him again, wistfully, gratefully, and he being excited by his own feelings, and by sympathy with all this excitement which breathed around him in so many currents, was carried beyond all prudence, beyond all intention. “I will do anything,” he said, “to please you, and serve her, you know. It is nothing to offer. I am nobody in comparison with others; but what I have is all yours, and at your service⁠—the little that it is⁠—”

“Oh,” said Edith, in a mere breath of rapid, almost inaudible, response, “it is too much; it is too much.” She did not know what she said.

“Nothing is too much. I am not asking any return. I am not presumptuous; but I am free to give. Nobody can stop me from doing that,” said John, not much more clearly. It was all over in a moment. The people within a few yards of them scarcely knew they had exchanged a word; even Rintoul did not suspect any communication that was worth preventing. And next moment they separated. John, panting and breathless, as if he had been running a race, went up to where Millefleurs was discoursing upon some bit of upholstery, and stood by in the shelter of this discussion to let himself cool down. Edith kept behind in the shelter of her mother. And just then Carry came softly out of the door of the great dining-room from behind the marble pillars, having recovered herself, and called back the smile to her face. In the midst of all these emotions, Millefleurs talked smoothly on.

“My people,” he said, “have a place down in Flintshire that is a little like this, but not so perfect. My grandfather, or whoever it was, lost confidence before it was done, and mixed it up. But here, don’t you know, the confidence has been sublime; no doubt has been allowed to intrude. They say that in Scotland you are so absolute⁠—all or nothing, don’t you know. Whether in furniture or anything else, how fine that is!” said the little Marquis, turning up his palms. He looked quite absorbed in his subject, and as calm as a man in gingerbread. Nevertheless, he was the only person to notice that slight passage of conversation sotto voce, and the breathless condition in which John reached him. What had he been doing to put him out of breath?

When the house had been inspected, the party went to luncheon⁠—a very sumptuous meal, which was prepared in the great dining-room, and was far too splendid for an ordinary family party such as this was. John, whose excitement had rather increased than diminished, and who felt that he had altogether committed himself, without chance or hope of any improved relations, was not able to subdue himself to the point of sitting down at table. He took his leave in spite of the protests of the party. His heart was beating loudly, his pulses all clanging in his ears like a steam-engine. He did not get the chance even of a glance from Edith, who said goodbye to him in a tremulous voice, and did not look up. He saw her placed by the side of Millefleurs at table, as he turned away. He had all the modesty of genuine feeling⁠—a modesty which is sometimes another name for despair. Why should she take any notice of him? He had no right to aspire so high. Nothing to give, as he said, except as a mere offering⁠—a flower laid at her feet⁠—not a gift which was capable of a return. He said to himself that, so far as this went, there should be no deception in his mind. He would give his gift⁠—it was his pleasure to give it⁠—lavishly, with prodigal abundance; as a prince should give, expecting no return. In this he would have the better of all of them, he said to himself, as he went through the great house, where, except in the centre of present entertainment, all was silent like a deserted place. He would give more liberally, more magnificently, than any duke or duke’s son, for he would give all, and look for nothing in return. The feeling which accompanied this élan of entire self-devotion and abandonment of selfish hope gave him something of the same calm of exhaustion which was in Carry’s soul. He seemed to have come to something final, something from which there was no recovery. He could not sit down at table with them; but he could not go away any more than he could stay. He went out through the vacant hall, where nobody took any notice of his going or coming, and emerged upon the wide opening of the plateau, sheltered by fir-trees, upon which the house stood dominating the landscape. His was the only shadow that crossed the sunshine in front of the huge mass of building which was so noiseless outside, so full of life and emotion within. He could not go away any more than he could stay. He wandered to the fringe of trees which clothed the edge of the steep cliff above the river, and sat there on the bank gazing down on the depths below, till the sound of voices warned him that the party was moving from the dining-room. Then he hastened away to avoid them, taking the less frequented road which led by the Scaur. He had passed that dangerous spot, but the way was still narrow between the bushes, when he heard the hoofs of Torrance’s great black horse resounding upon the path. Pat was returning home after what had evidently been a wild gallop, for the powerful animal had his black coat flecked with foam, and was chewing the bit in his mouth. Torrance had almost passed without perceiving John, but catching a glimpse of him as he pushed along, suddenly drew up, making his horse rear and start. He had an air of heat and suppressed passion which corresponded with the foam and dishevelled looks of the horse. “Hollo!” he cried, “you, Erskine, have they broken up?” and sat swaying his great bulk with the impatient movements of the fagged yet fiery beast. John answered briefly, and was about to pass on, when Torrance gave him what was intended to be a playful poke with the end of his whip. “When’s your visitor coming?” he said, with his harsh laugh.

“My visitor! I expect no visitor,” said John, stepping back with anger which he could scarcely restrain. It was all he could do not to seize the whip, and snatch it out of the other’s hand. But neither the narrow path, nor the excited state in which both men were, was safe for any scuffle. John restrained himself with an effort.

“Oh yes, you are!” cried Torrance; “you let it out once, you know⁠—you can’t take in me. But I’m the last man in the world to find fault. Let him come! We’ll have him up to Tinto, and make much of him. I told you so before.”

“You seem to know my arrangements better than I know them myself,” John said, white with suppressed fury. “I have no visitor coming. Permit me to know my own affairs.”

“Ah! so you’ve forbidden him to come! Let me tell you, Mr. Erskine, that that’s the greatest insult of all. Why shouldn’t he come? he, or any fellow? Do you think I’m afraid of Lady Car?” and here his laugh rang into all the echoes. “Not a bit; I think more of her than that. You’re putting a slight on her when you ask any man not to come. Do you hear?”

“I hear perfectly, and would hear if you spoke lower. There’s enough of this, Torrance. I suppose it’s your way, and you don’t intend to be specially objectionable⁠—but I am not going to be questioned so, nor will I take the lie from any man,” cried John, with rising passion. There was scarcely room for him to stand in safety from the horse’s hoofs, and he was compelled to draw back among the bushes as the great brute pranced and capered.

“What! will you fight?” cried Torrance, with another laugh; “that’s all exploded nowadays⁠—that’s a business for Punch. Not that I mind: any way you please. Look here! here’s a fist that would soon master you. But it’s a joke, you know, nowadays; a joke, for Punch.”

“So much the worse,” cried John, hotly. “It was the only way of keeping in order a big bully like you.”

“Oh, that’s what you call me! If there was anyone to see fair play⁠—to you (for I’m twice your size)⁠—I’d let Blackie go, and give you your fill of that.”

John grasped instinctively at the bridle of the big black horse, which seemed charging down upon him; and for a moment the two men gazed at each other, over the tossing foam-flecked head, big eyeballs, and churning mouth. Then John let go the bridle at which he had caught, with an exclamation of scorn.

“Another time for that, if that is what you want,” he said.

“No,” cried the other, looking back, as the horse darted past⁠—“no, that’s not what I want; you’re an honest fellow⁠—you shall say what you please. We’ll shake hands⁠—” The horse carrying him off lost the rest of the words in the clang of jingling reins and half-maddened hoofs.

John went on very rapidly, excited beyond measure by the encounter. His face was flushed and hot; his hat, which had been knocked off his head, was stained with the damp red soil. He had torn his sleeve in the clutch he had made at the bridle. He dashed along the narrow road at a wild pace to calm himself down by rapid movement. A little way down he encountered a keeper crossing the road, who disappeared into the woods after a curious glance at his excited looks and torn coat. Further on, as he came out of the gate, he met, to his great astonishment, old Rolls, plodding along towards Tinto in company with another man, who met him at the gate. “Bless me, sir! what’s the maitter? Ye cannot walk the highroad like that!” was the first exclamation of old Rolls.

“Like what? Oh, my sleeve! I tore it just now on a⁠—on a⁠—catching a runaway horse. The brute was wild, I thought he would have had me down.” There was nothing in this that was absolutely untrue, at least nothing that it was not permissible to say in the circumstances, but the explanation was elaborate, as John felt. “And what are you doing here?” he said, peremptorily. “What do you want at Tinto?” It seemed almost a personal offence to him to find Rolls there.

“I have something to say to Tinto, sir, with all respect. My father was a tenant of his father⁠—a small tenant, not to call a farmer, something between that and a cotter⁠—and I’m wanting to speak a good word for my brother-in-law, John Tamson, that you will maybe mind.”

Upon this the man by Rolls’s side, who had been inspecting John curiously, at last persuaded himself to touch, not to take off, his hat, and to say: “Ay, sir, I’m John Tamson. I was the first to see ye the day ye cam’ first to Dalrulzian. I hae my wife ower by that’s good at her needle. Maybe ye’ll step in and she’ll shue your coat-sleeve for you. You canna gang like that all the gate to Dalrulzian. There’s no saying who ye may meet.”

John Erskine had not been awakened before to the strangeness of his appearance. He looked down upon his torn coat with a vague alarm. It was a start of the black horse while he held its bridle which had torn the sleeve out of its socket. While he was looking at this, with a disturbed air, the lodge-gates were thrown open and the Lindores’s carriage came through. Lady Lindores waved her hand to him, then bent forward to look at him with sudden surprise and alarm; but the horses were fresh, and swept along, carrying the party out of sight. Millefleurs was alone with the ladies in the carriage⁠—that John noticed without knowing why.

A minute after, accepting John Tamson’s offer of service, he went over with him to his cottage, where the wife immediately got her needle and thread, with much lamentation over the gentleman’s “gude black coat.” “Bless me, sir! it must have been an ill-willy beast that made ye give your arm a skreed like that,” she said: and John felt that his hand was unsteady and his nerves quivering. After all, it was no such great matter. He could not understand how it was that he had been agitated to such an extent by an encounter so slight.