The Ladies Lindores · Chapter 36 (2/2)

“Could the children be taken from me?” Carry said, but not with any active feeling; her powers of emotion were all concentrated on one thought. Lady Lindores, who was watching her with all a mother’s anxious criticism, fearing to see any failure of right sentiment in her child, listened with a sensation of alarm. She had never been contented with herself in this particular. Carry’s children had been too much the children of Pat Torrance to awaken the grandmother’s worship, which she thought befitting, in her own heart. She felt a certain repulsion when she looked at these black-browed, light-eyed creatures, who were their father’s in every feature⁠—not Carry’s at all. Was it possible that Carry, too, felt the same? But by-and-by Carry took up that little stolid girl on whom Lady Lindores could not place her tenderest affections, do what she would, and pressed her pale cheek against that undisturbed and solid little countenance. The child’s face looked bigger than her mother’s, Lady Lindores thought⁠—the one all mind and feeling, the other all clay. She went and gave little Edith a kiss in her compunction and penitence for this involuntary dislike; but fortunately Carry herself was unconscious of it, and caressed her babies as if they were the most delicate and beautiful in the world.

Carry was not present at the reading of the will. She shrank from it, and no one insisted. There were father and brother to look after her interests. Rintoul was greatly shaken by the events of the day. He was ghastly pale, and very much excited and agitated. Whatever his sister might do, Rintoul certainly exhibited the truest sentiment. Nobody had given him credit for half so much feeling. He carried back his little nephew asleep after the long drive home, and thrust him into Carry’s arms. “I am not much of a fellow,” he said, stooping over her, with a voice full of emotion, “but I’ll do a father’s part to him, if I’m good enough for it, Carry.” Carry by this time was quite calm, and wondered at this exhibition of feeling, at which Lady Lindores shed tears, though in her heart she wondered too, rejoicing that her inward rebellion against Torrance’s children was not shared by her son. “Robin’s heart was always in the right place,” she said, with a warmth of motherly approval, which was not diminished by the fact that Rintoul’s emotion made her still more conscious of the absence of “right feeling” in herself. There was not much conversation between the ladies in the small morning room to which they had withdrawn⁠—a room which had never been used and had no associations. Carry, indeed, was very willing to talk; but her mother and sister did their best, with a natural prejudice and almost horror of the manner in which she regarded her own circumstances, to keep her silent. Even Edith, who would have dissolved the marriage arbitrarily, did not like to hear her sister’s cry of satisfaction over the freedom which death had brought her. There was something impious and cruel in getting free that way. If it had been by a divorce or separation, Edith would have been as glad as any; but she was a girl full of prejudices and superstitions, and this candour of Carry’s was a thing she shrank from as an offence to human nature. She kept behind-backs, often with her little niece on her knee, but sometimes by herself, keeping very quiet, revolving many thoughts in her heart; while Lady Lindores kept close to Carry, like a sick-nurse, keeping watch over all her movements. It was dusk when the reading of the will was over, and the sound in the house of footsteps going and coming began to cease. Then Lord Lindores came in with much subdued dignity of demeanour, like an ambassador approaching a crowned head. He went up to Carry, who lay back in a great easy-chair beside the fire with her hands clasped, pursuing the thoughts which she was not permitted to express, and gave her a formal kiss on the forehead: not that he was cold or unsympathetic as a father, but he had been a little afraid of her since her marriage, and she had not welcomed the condolences he had addressed to her when he saw her first after Tinto’s death.

“My dear,” he said, “this is not a moment for congratulations: and yet there is something to a woman in having earned the entire confidence of her husband, which must be a subject of satisfaction⁠—”

Carry scarcely moved in her stillness. She looked at him without understanding what he meant. “It would be better, perhaps,” she said, “father, not to speak of the circumstances.”

“I hope I am not likely to speak in a way that could wound your feelings, Carry. Poor Patrick⁠—has done you noble justice in his will.”

A hysterical desire to laugh seized poor Lady Car. Lord Lindores himself was a little confused by the name he had coined on the spot for his dead son-in-law. He had felt that to call him Torrance would be cold, as his wish was to express the highest approval; and Pat was too familiar. But his “Poor Patrick” was not successful. And Carry knew that, even in the midst of her family, she must not laugh that day, whatever might happen. She stopped herself convulsively, but cried, “Papa, for heaven’s sake, don’t talk to me any more!”

“Do you not see, Robert, that she is exhausted?” said Lady Lindores. “She thinks nothing of the will. She is worn out with⁠—all she has had to go through. Let her alone till she has had time to recover a little.”

His wife’s interposition always irritated Lord Lindores. “I may surely be permitted to speak to Carry without an interpreter,” he said, testily. “It is no doubt a very⁠—painful moment for her. But if anything could make up⁠—Torrance has behaved nobly, poor fellow! It must be gratifying to us all to see the confidence he had in her. You have the control of everything during your boy’s minority, Carry. Everything is in your hands. Of course it was understood that you would have the support of your family. But you are hampered by no conditions: he has behaved in the most princely manner; nothing could be more gratifying,” Lord Lindores said.

Carry sat motionless in her chair, and took no notice⁠—her white hands clasped on her lap; her white face, passive and still, showed as little emotion as the black folds of her dress, which were like a tragic framework round her. Lady Lindores, with her hand upon the back of her daughter’s chair, came anxiously between, and replied for her. She had to do her best to say the right thing in these strange circumstances⁠—to be warmly gratified, yet subdued by the conventional gloom necessary to the occasion. “I am very glad,” she said⁠—“that is, it is very satisfactory. I do not see what else he could have done. Carry must have had the charge of her own children⁠—who else had any right?⁠—but, as you say, it is very gratifying to find that he had so much confidence⁠—”

Lord Lindores turned angrily away. “Nerves and vapours are out of place here,” he said. “Carry ought to understand⁠—but, fortunately, so long as I know what I am about⁠—the only one among you⁠—”

At this Carry raised herself hastily in her chair. She said “Papa,” quickly, with a half gasp of alarm. Then she added, without stopping, almost running her words into each other in her eagerness, “They are my children; no one else has anything to do with them; I must do everything⁠—everything! for them myself; nobody must interfere.”

“Who do you expect to interfere?” said her father, sternly. He found himself confronting his entire family as he turned upon Carry, who was so strangely roused and excited, sitting up erect in her seat, clasping her pale hands. Rintoul had gone round behind her chair, beside his mother; and Edith, rising up behind, stood there also, looking at him with a pale face and wide-open eyes. It was as if he had made an attack upon her⁠—he who had come here to inform her of her freedom and her rights. This sudden siding together of all against one is bitter, even when the solitary person may know himself to be wrong. But Lord Lindores felt himself in the right at this moment. Supposing that perhaps he had made a mistake in this marriage of Carry’s, fate had stepped in and made everything right. She was nobly provided for, with the command of a splendid fortune⁠—and she was free. Now at least his wisdom ought to be acknowledged, and that he had done well for his daughter. But notwithstanding his resentment, he was a little cowed “in the circumstances” by this gathering of pale faces against him. Nothing could be said that was not peaceful and friendly on the day that the dead had gone out of the house.

“Do you think I am likely to wish to dictate to her,” he said, with a short laugh, “that you stand round to defend her from me? Carry, you are very much mistaken if you think I will interfere. Children are out of my way. Your mother will be your best adviser. I yield to her better information now. You are tired, you are unhappy⁠—you are⁠—left desolate⁠—”

“Oh, how do you dare to say such words to me?” cried Carry, rising, coming forward to him with feverish energy, laying her hands upon his shoulders, as if to compel him to face her, and hear what she had to say. “Don’t you know⁠—don’t you know? I was left desolate when you brought me here, five years⁠—five dreadful years ago. Whose fault is that? I am glad he is dead⁠—glad he is dead! Could a woman be more injured than that? But now I have neither father nor mother,” she cried. “I am in my own right; my life is my own, and, my children; I will be directed no more.”

All this time she stood with her hands on his shoulders, grasping him unconsciously to give emphasis to her words. Lord Lindores was startled beyond measure by this personal contact⁠—by the way in which poor Carry, always so submissive, flung herself upon him. “Do you mean to use violence to me? do you mean to turn me out of your house?” he said.

“Oh, father!⁠—oh, father! how can I forgive you?” Carry cried, in her excitement and passion; and then she dropped her hands suddenly and wept, and begged his pardon like a child. Lord Lindores was very glad to take advantage of this sudden softening which he had so little expected. He kissed her and put her back in her chair. “I would recommend you to put her to bed,” he said to his wife; “she has been overdone.” And he thought he had got the victory, and that poor Carry, after her little explosion, was safe in his hands once more. He meant no harm to Carry. It was solely of her good and that of her children that he thought. It could do no harm either to the one or the other if they served his aims too. He drove home with his son soon after, leaving his wife behind him: it was proper that Carry should have her mother and sister with her at so sad a time. And the house of Tinto, which had been so dark all these nights, shone demurely out again this evening, at a window here and there⁠—death, which is always an oppression, being gone from it, and life resuming its usual sway. The flag still hung half-mast high, drooping against the flagstaff, for there was no wind. “But I’m thinking, my lord, we’ll put it back tomorrow,” said the butler as he stood solemnly at the carriage-door. He stood watching it roll down the avenue in that mood of genial exhaustion which makes men communicative. “It’s a satisfaction to think all’s gane well and everybody satisfied,” he said to his subordinate; “for a death in a family is worse to manage than ony other event. You’re no’ just found fault with at the moment, but it’s minded against you if things go wrong, and your ‘want o’ feelin’.’ My lady will maybe think it want o’ feelin’ if I put up the flag. But why should I no’? For if big Tinto’s gane, there’s wee Tinto, still mair important, with all the world before him. And if I let it be, they’ll say it’s neglect.”

“My lady will never fash her head about it,” said the second in command.

“How do you ken? Ah, my lad, you’ll find a change. The master might give you a damn at a moment, but he wasna hard to manage. We’ll have all the other family, her family, to give us our orders now.”